Tired, Stressed, and Slightly Depressed

Today was the last day of school...for the seniors. Good for them, sad for me. I know them better than I know my own class... I don't know what I'll do next year. At least I'll have the summer with them, but I think next year is going to be terrible. Before this year, I was miserable at school. I had very few friends and was rarely invited to do anything after class, but this year was awesome (you know I need a new adjective; any suggestions?). I've entered in to several rewarding friendships that I hope to maintain as long as I can. Most of this was due to the fact that half of my classes were made up of mostly seniors, but next year there is no other group I'll have classes with, maybe a few juniors, but not many. I'm not too hopeful about making new friendships among my own classmates; I've been with them for years and not much has happened in that department. I suppose I have met a few new people from my class this year, but I haven't really spent any time with them and I'm not sure they're the type of people who I'd want to spend time with outside of school. If I want to actually enjoy my senior year, I'll have to work hard at it, but I think in the end I'll have to say that this was the best of my high school years and I'm sad for it to end. I'm also a little anxious about teachers next year. I was fortunate that most of my teachers this year were reasonable, logical, and intelligent, but I have had trouble with that before. I have a very hard time respecting a teacher who is crazy, unfocused and "always right." A good teacher can make all the difference between me hating or loving school. I'm looking forward to Boggs and Duvall, but I don't know about the rest; and Couch is leaving :( (good for him; bad for me) Who will be teaching geography? This stuff is driving me crazy. I think I just need to relax or something. I think after all this graduation stuff gets over, I am tuning out of life for a week, locking myself in my room and reading Lord of the Rings (round six). That should help. Oh, but some of this week has been just dreadful,; I don't think I've ever sighed so much in my life. Monday the Econ Squad took its (probable but hopefully not) last trip together to the Federal Reserve Bank branch in Birmingham. I don't think it was as quite as fun as the Mall of America, but I enjoyed it. I think I probably scared Sra. Nuñez when I talked to her in Spanish about economics and the Federal Reserve System during my oral final! Tuesday was depressing. I came home and cried over losing the seniors and wasn't able to sleep at all. Wednesday I looked and felt dead and my head was peeling. The awards ceremony was that day too. Why? For some reason I felt better after fourth block and spent most of the evening at Barnes and Noble with Marie and Trisha. I made cookies too. Today I worked first and second block and then after an hour of wandering around wondering what to do, I left with the seniors because I didn't have a third or fourth block class...everyone was gone. We went to Cheeburger Cheeburger where I spent the last of my money, unless I open up my college savings account. I NEED money this week (suggestions?). Too bad I'm not a bank ;) I came home and started helping my mom's friend grade papers when I get a call from Ms. Vermillion, "We're trying to take the Latin final, and umm...you're not here." So off I run to take that dumb test. I felt bad about that. So I was 15 minutes late for my orthodontist appointment. Oh well. When they asked me how I was I answered, instead of my usual, "Just fine...I guess," "Tired, stressed, and slightly depressed" They gave me balloons. The stupid retainer I got tastes like it is dissolving in my mouth; with my breath, it probably is. I'm spending this evening alone, refusing to do schoolwork, but I did finally go shopping for some clothes. You know, someone needs to tell me the secret of short posts. I'm sorry mine are so long and boring. It's one of my few outlets.